Missy, Stop All The Waiting.

Missy, could it be that you in some way enjoy the feeling of being a martyr? Of sacrificing your happiness for someone else's? The feeling of being victimised by the circumstances. And is it because you get a feeling deep down inside, and you tell yourself, that someday all your sacrifices will be recognized and you will finally get your moment in the light?

You have this romantic idea that your life is like a movie. And you're the stepped on heroine of the film that everyone pities and feels for. But at the end of the day you get your own and everyone sees that you're the protagonist of the story after all.

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Well let me tell you Missy, give it up because it's just rubbish. No one out there really sees your sacrifices and even if they do, as if they actually care. No one's keeping tabs or keeping score and it's not like a point buildup system. Whatever you do, it goes unnoticed or forgotten most of the time and there's no one watching to give you the acknowledgement and credit you deserve. There may be. But it's unlikely.

Maybe you feel that God is watching, and he sees everything you have done for everybody else. Maybe you have faith that he will reward all your sorrow with your own joys someday. Maybe. I am a believer too. But somehow I feel that in this world, we're largely responsible to make our own way as well and God mostly leaves us to it, to work at and build our own lives the way we want it to be. Then He helps it along.

You can't just let go and throw it all up in the air and expect them to get sorted out themselves. I'm not saying it can't happen, it can. And it does on occasion. But at the best, you have to do something to help it along. Just in case it needs that extra push.

So protect yourself Missy. And don't spend your life waiting on the sidelines for a reward that may never come. It's not coming Missy! It's not coming. Give it up. And live for yourself more from now on. Sometimes you gotta seek out your own rewards.

It's a romantic idea. It's a romantic train of thought and a romantic way of looking at things. But it just sounds too much like some cliched Cinderella-story like plot.

It won't happen Missy. So don't count on it.

... But when you look away, life may just surprise you very pleasantly indeed.