The Prayer.

Father in Heaven, if it is the time for me to let go of him and if I absolutely must then give me the courage and the strength to get through what must happen. Lord, I am not ready to let him go, and I don't know if I ever will be. I don't know if these are the words of a girl with a lack of courage to be alone and to let go of another love; all I know is that I love him Father and I am not ready to let him go. Even though all he's done and the words he has said ring through my ears and play in my mind, and with every replay they cut a deep gash in my already bleeding heart, I love him and I am not ready to let him go. A part of me, the childlike part keeps thinking that a love such as this must surely prevail. How can it not? It is unthinkable! But I am not looking at the world as it is. And another part of me knows that it is not true. Why must I fall in love with someone such as he? Why couldn't I just not, and spare myself such agony. Why must I make this step? I don't understand Father in Heaven and I wish you would just give me the answers because my poor heart cannot wonder anymore. It's broken beyond repair and all that I thought I believed in in love is slipping away through my fingers. I cry now for love. So if I must let him go, something I believe I may never be able to do, then give me the courage and give me the strength Lord, for I cannot do it alone. 

He doesn't love me. Why doesn't he love me? Why can't he love me?